Eat, Pray, Love.

Incredible.

Painting again. :)

Today, I went shopping for art to decorate my newly in-the-process-of-being-revampified bedroom. I found nothing that I wanted to buy, but lots of inspiration, so I created my own art. It's nice to paint again. I didn't realize how much I missed it until I was actually globbing, swishing, dotting, and swirling. :)

Abundance

In our day-to-day (more like minute-to-minute) world, we are constantly trying to get more things done and better ourselves. For some strange reason, from the time we are born, we are instilled with the idea that we are not perfect, that there are things "wrong" with us. As we grow up, these ideas continue to beat our brains. "I can't" and "I'm not good enough" and "I'm not pretty enough" become normal, regularly used terminology. I read a very inspiring article in a 7 Part Affirmations Course that I downloaded from gems4friends.com (a site that contains a plethora of information on hollistic healing).

The writer begins with the topic of abundance. When we "tune into abundance, we place ourselves in line with the universal laws." We automatically become open and one with the environment. We need to be like the seasons in nature and when something feels "right", we need to take action. Resistance will just block off the flow of energy and not allow the abundance of good things to pour into our lives.

It's a hard transition, but there are ways to open up and jump-start that energy flow. One example the writer gives, is to list each and everything you are thankful for, everything from the ground, to your shoes, to the air you breath, to your digestive system, to your senses, to the love that someone gives to you. Once you start realizing all of the good things happening in your life, it's hard to dwell on the negative. When negative thoughts do prevail, which is typical in human nature, we need to befriend them and show them a better way.

I feel it would be good for me to incorporate more positive thoughts into my new routine. I was deeply inspired by this article and will begin to add affirmations dealing with abundance to my meditation.

Burried alive

If you erase bits of your past, and cut certain people out of your life completely, will it change things? Will the guilt go away? I am tired of secrets. Keeping them is destroying my relationships. I am desperate to delete the negative and work on myself for a while. All of this negative energy is wearing me down, making me tired, sick, depressed, dependent, cold. This isn't me.

"There's only one way back into the world, and that's to talk."

No, more lies or secrets. Just open honesty. I have to dig myself out of this hole and find the light again.

Project Earth

Michael Franti and Wookiefoot- "Rivers of Babylon"

This summer, Wookiefoot put together an amazing charity festival called Project Earth. It was a small, intimate event and only 1,000 tickets were sold. According to the website, "The intention of the festival was to co-create a community celebration with the event patrons. Primarily, Project Earth was an opportunity to camp together and fund raise for charitable causes. 100% of the profits for the festival went to help other communities around the globe from emergency relief, sustainability, to education and medicine. By taking the focus off the "main stage" and dividing the energy between numerous ambient performance spaces, and an atmosphere of intimate spontaneity unfolded. The idea was to focus hundreds of ticket purchasing participants to be involved in everything from prop building, theme camp design, workshop presentation, performance, family activities, promotions, clean up, etc."

The campground was divided into 7 spaces, representing the Chakras (bodies of wheel-like energy that permeate from certain points on the physical body, according to Indian medicine). The Chakras represented were Crown Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra, Heart Chakra, Solar Plexus Chakra, Sacral Chakra, and Root Chakra, each representing certain themes.


This festival was an opportunity to "make art that is larger than that we can make as individuals." I really hope to be a part of this experience next summer!

Wookiefoot!

This was the most psychadelic, happy show I've ever been to! My friend Sean described it as Sublime on "Yo Gabba Gabba"...I think that description suits the group quite well. Haha! Their tribe was so positive and inspirational. They were extremely creative, positive, and had SO much love to share! Hoping to see them back in Lincoln again! :)

Another Day Almost Faded

Today was a good day.
It didn't begin that way.
The alarm clock screamed at me much to early,
ripping my lifeless body from the warm, cozy pile of blankets and boyfriend.
I guess lots of free booz and poker until 4 am was not the best idea.
I dressed, in the same clothes from the night before,
and went directly to school.
No make-up touch-ups, my hair was loose and tangled.
I was a pale-faced zombie with dark circles under my eyes,
fighting sleep during class.
It was pulling at my eyelids, ripping them shut.
It tried to paralyze my body.
I used what was left of my energy to try and take notes.
Looking at them now, none even make sense.
I guess that's what you get when you're narcoleptic in the first place
and get no sleep, ever.
I tried to fight it, but sleep always wins.
Eventually, it did.
It was a good day today because nothing happened. Nothing bad, nothing stressful.
I came home, leaped into my mound of red satin sheets,
and that's all I remember.
Until now.
Here I am, eating a bowl of pistacio-almond ice cream,
thinking about how sick I am, thinking that this day was a good one
because I slept through it.
When I sleep, I forget about everything for a while.
Alcohol, drugs, and sleep.
They put me in a coma and make the time pass, but I feel like I'm lacking wholesomeness.
Are those things really making me happier?
I need to get out in the sun and experience again.
This sedentary way of "life" is only going to furthur my depression.
There aren't too many 60 degree days in November.
Here's to self-reflection.
3:25 and it's finally time for my good day to really begin.